I can't begin to explain how this past week has been. I've had emotions I've never felt. I've viewed certain things in a completely different light. I've laughed in places I shouldn't have. I smile more.
I sat at my desk at work and listened to this song over and over...staring at my engagement ring with a smile.
Hey now, this is my desire
Consume me like a fire, 'cause I just want something beautiful
To touch me, I know that I'm in reach
'Cause I am down on my knees, I'm waiting for something beautiful
Oh, something beautiful
And the water is risin' quick
And for years I was scared of it
We can't be sure when it will subside
So I won't leave your side, no I can't leave your side
I felt the warmth of the sun through the glass door. I couldn't help but lean against it. It felt so good that I pressed my face, my hands, and then my entire body against it. I wanted to be bathed in that warmth...just like my old Amy cat. She would lay in the sunny spots on the carpet and seem so peaceful. I had a bit of that peace and warmth today too. If there would have been more time before I had to unlock that door I would have grabbed the pink body pillow and curled up on the window ledge in the front party room. Ahh, goals for another day.
I hesitated before changing my Facebook status today. I like that it announced our engagement, even if all of those Facebook friends of mine already know. I liked seeing it and reliving that moment that I.SAID.YES!! At this point, I don't care if this lovey dovey crap is annoying ya'll. It is mine. It is J's. It is OURS and I plan on enjoying it for as long as possible. If you know us in the slightest, you know that we are not lovey dovey. There is nothing "ooey gooey" about our love. We are not usually this sticky sweet couple. So, please, be patient. Let me enjoy it for now.
Today I am looking forward to just a peaceful, normal Friday. I was reading another blog today and came across this quote. It spoke to me. I loved it, and now I'll share it with you.
"Normal day, let me be aware of the treasure you are. Let me learn from you, love you, bless you before you depart. Let me not pass you by in quest of some rare and perfect tomorrow. Let me hold you while I may, for it may not always be so. One day, I shall dig my nails into the earth, or bury my face in the pillow, or stretch myself taut, or raise my hands to the sky and want, more than all the world, your return."
I'm so looking forward to this normal day!